It hurts to let go. It hurts to say goodbye. It hurts when things change. Life hurts.
We cannot not cause harm and pain. We cannot not experience harm and pain.
I think so much of what I have tried to do with conscious relating (what I see so many people trying to do) is to avoid pain. We think if we can just get our schedule right, if we can just have the right amount of people in our lives in the right constellation, if it can all be just so then it will all be okay. It’s not all okay. The moments where it feels good need to be enjoyed, fully felt and cherished. The moments where it doesn’t feel good need to be seen, fully felt and understood.
I thought if I had just had that conversation, if I had just been clearer, more direct, less this, less that, more this, more that. But, there is no avoiding mistakes, mismatches or misunderstandings.
I have been working so hard to avoid any pain and now I am immersed in a world of it. The tears and the upset must be released. Words will flow and time will be taken.
